Hey guys, sorry for the lack of updates. There's 2 main reasons.
Number one being that I don't feel like anyone cares about my posts anymore.
Number two being this. Please read:
I'm having to go through huge changes right now that have happened all very sudden.
My mum and her fiancé have split up after being together for 8 years. This doesn't bother me as I've always hated him and he's made my life hell and I've been expecting it to happen for years.
The shock and the thing that hurts me the most is that me and my mum have to start from the beginning again. My grandparents have taken us until we get back on our feet. Moving house again is going to kill me. We only moved at the start of January. Moving into a small house with 4 people is going to be a struggle compared to living in a huge house with only 3 people.
It's going to take a while for us to get our own house and get on our feet but mum's promised that she'll spend more time with me and that things will be more revolved around me. I know that sounds selfish but things have never really been about me and I've always been left out and alone.
Hopefully once things are sorted out, me and mum will be spending more time together, going out more, going on holiday which we've not done in about 4 years and we might even be able to get a dog! I've always wanted my own dog!
I'm trying to be the strongest I've ever been right now even though it's the hardest time to be strong. Not only am I going through this, I'm still going through my own personal problems.
I just need to try and keep a level head as much as I possibly can and keep enjoying the things that keep me sane.
Music again is going to help me again. A7X, Shinedown, Alter Bridge, Linkin Park, CKY are the bands I need the most right now. I also need my movies and TV shows too, it sounds kids strange but they always make me laugh. Jackass, CKY, Viva La Bam, The Dudesons, Rob Dyrdek's Fantasy Factory, Rob and Big, Ridiculousness, The Walking Dead and NCIS are helping me through things.
I hope you guys understand and I'll try to continue posting